I've been a little sad today. Sad because someone I love very dearly is hurting, sad because I miss my Meme and so does all of my family and it is hard to watch people I love be sad and a little down because of the worries I have about my custody case that is coming up on its final hearing in a few weeks. Over the past months, I have been able to maintain a positive attitude about most of these things, but right now I'm just having some down moments.
While I was moping around online tonight, I came across this little gem:
"Life is going to push you around, beat you up and it's going to scare you. But, then one day, you realize you're not just a survivor, you're a warrior."
It helped to to take a step back, pause and realize this is true. I am doing more than simply surviving and have been actually fighting back for myself, the person I want to be and know that I am and for my family. And, I do think I am turning into a warrior of sorts. I have learned how to keep fighting and keep moving forward even when I don't want to anymore. I have learned to recognize and deal with my feelings instead of trying to drown them with alcohol. I am sure that I am going to get through these times of sadness, but I also have learned that I am allowed to feel down sometimes. Without the lows the highs aren't quite as sweet.